Quite excerpt. Endlessly unexamined. And very thankful to the Dan Coxon and the whole Litro crew for making it so. Excerpt? Word.
"Here’s what you need to know: my father is dead and Debbie and I are
talking about having a baby. My father was a complicated mix of artist,
teacher, activist, and world traveler, and yet despite that, he died
with regrets about things he had, and had not, done. The regrets did not
make the person, but coupled with his death their impact is profound
We think we can escape our parents’ shadows, but moving away from
them, or shutting off our feelings, even their death, does not make the
shadows go away.
Children are different of course. The shadows come later, but even
talking about having children makes the chance for adventure seem less
likely, and Debbie and I have definitely not been on enough adventures
together. And yes, I know, people go on adventures when they are
parents, but will we? I don’t know, which makes me think even more about
regret and shadows, which leaves me spinning.
It also makes me want to run away."